scream with me.

Being able to breath

2012-02-15T02:15:00.001+08:00

I've chose to close my eyes, i opened my heart

I've chose to shut my feelings, i followed my heart

It's pitch dark out there, moon i need you to guide my way.

Stars i need you to shine upon me,

to the path that i will find your hand.

My mission is to hold your hand till the very last breath

keeping the very silence between us it's just you and me, the moon and the stars shining upon us.

World, slow down.

Time is all we need.

Mid-night is the best time to write. Wrote that within 20mins. Which i find it hard to do it in the day. The night is so peaceful. But sadly i've gotta sleep really soon. Work have been really hectic for me. But yeah lesser time for ermm..drama starters so yeah better life. What's more exciting? MY VOCAL LESSON! :D 8 more days! I hope my cough will get better, suckay to have wreck voice on the first day of class right? Working towards my dream how i wish the world will slow down. Feeling damn dumb wasting my time on useless matters or even people.

What to do life goes on, no point brooding over it. Like again whatever doesn't kills me makes me stronger. Life gets tougher isn't it? Keyword embrace! Happy thoughts to brainwash off all negative thoughts. Life will be awesome if you make it happen (:

I dislike my complicated mind, they don't go on annual leave, lunch/dinner break or even "eating snake". Thank godness i keep my thoughts to myself most of the time. Certain thoughts are best kept with just you yourself. Tsk why do i have such serious trust issues.

I can foresee a hectic year coming up with sidelines and lessons going on. Shall fully utilize this year.

Wayyyyyyy to go! (:

xoxo,

fel (:

My heart

2012-01-19T12:49:00.000+08:00

Holla all,

I love emo songs, here just for you singing one of my favourite song! Will do a better cover for this!

xoxo,

fel (:

Running after time.

2012-01-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

Stay, i'm coming.

Time is running so quickly! half of Jan is gone! And chinese new year is just around the corner. Can you sense my panic attack? Everything is happening so fast and soon it's gonna be xmas that means im turning 2 fucking 4 this damn year. Omgg. mid year crisis tell me about it!

On a brighter note i have finally enrolled for vocal class after like i dont know how many years of dragging. Super excited! 2012 shall be awesome, no it's going to be awesome i shall make it AWWEEESOMMME.

Having to said am no longer a "child". Grew up and mindset on things is different now.
Use to escape from problems rather then facing it. Now i've learn to face problems and deal with it. Shit happens you just gotta face the fact. I'm not saying am allowing dramas to enter my life again i shall vanish if i sense drama coming my way. But again, things don't always go your way in life! Shit happens and life goes on.

Recently i've been super accident prone, freaking cut my hand at work, cut my thumb till it bleed like muthafreakin crazy. Got burnt by fire sparkles during dinner and dance. omg, i need to stay awake.

This could also be one of the most socially driven years you've ever seen. With Mars activating your house of friendship and goals in the sign of Virgo, expect a majority of your energy to be engaged with a barrage of social situations. It's all for a good cause, however, and will translate into your bigger life goals; in fact, a good portion of the parties you attend will have some sort of work component behind them. And with glamorous Neptune moving back into your pleasure sector in February, life will suddenly become very art-house cinema for you.

Sounds awesome (:

xoxo,

fel (:

It's time to say goodbye and hello.

2012-01-03T02:39:00.001+08:00

Saying bye to my most horrifying year 2011. Got my heart broken and feet broken too.
Did stuff i never thought i would do and broke tons of my personal principles. This is what i call screwed up life, best thing you screwed it up yourself. Was so messed up and damaged. Pretty much dying slowly. Don't know if my feet accident was a tragic or was it a nudge from the angels. Was stuck at home for months. Did loads of thinking and clearing up all my messed up thoughts.

Sometimes i feel that my own thoughts could kill me but i couldn't stop thinking. So many things to think about. Family, friends, career, future and bla bla bla. Gaahh i need to go swim tomorrow, it calms my mind (;

Well 2012 is here, this time round i shall not screw this year up. Time is running so quickly, have so much undone and unsaid stuff. I've said this since my 21st birthday DRAMA FREE. And every year i allowed so much drama to enter my life. This year i promise myself i shall not allow any drama to come near me so as not creating any. And dramatic humans please i beg stay away from me. All of you had killed me slowly last year that make me turned into someone i dont even know, i feel very disgusted by the things i've done or even happened to me. Revived after the months of deep thoughts please do not murder me once more. I don't think i can handle anymore blows.

People who had make my 2011 awesome, i genuinely would love to thank all of you for your helping hand. From taking care of me when am died drunk, talking to me even thou you guys are tired or even by there for me when i needed you. I usually doesn't know how to express my feelings towards you guys, not really good at sweet talking but i love all of you who had been my sunshine when my world is dull. Thank you and even more thank you. You know who you are and i really appreciated all of your concern and love.

May 2012 be awesome for all of you!
Look at the bright side of life and eliminate all negative thoughts.
Bless you all my love ones (:

To those to had entered my life and destroyed my life, thank you. If it's not all of you i wouldn't have known that i could be this strong. I've already knew i could be this strong so please stay away from me.

xx,

fel (:

Oh feet!

2011-12-10T20:51:00.001+08:00

Back to work! Oh dear working has never been such a torture to me. Day 2 at work and my feet is now swelling like a ping pong ball. ))): Feet aching like crazy now.

Feeling so whiney now, but dunno who to whine to. WHY ISN'T MOMMY HOME ):
meeeeew, i'm in a living hell now
Stupid feet why must you kenna lang ga by car, now you can't jog, dance and stand so much make me so fattttttttt.

IM SO DEPRESSSSSSSSSSSSSS ))): KILL ME!
it's holiday season somemore busy like a busybee
feeet hurrrrrrrrrrrrts ):

*i still need to whine so badly. MOMMMMMMMY :X

xx,

fel (whiney)

Awesome People Part 1.

2011-12-05T12:13:00.001+08:00

Awesome people 1.1 Hera Wan

The Epic half, creating moments that i'll never forget in my entire life.

Driving me around when my feet is down.
Listen to me kp when am feeling emo.
Still tolerates me even thou when i fart while eating :D
Over eating together after most drinking nights.
Soaking in the bathtub for more then 3 hours accompanied with wine.
Watching retarded Youtube videos together
Laugh till we teared at the dumbest shit. NEH SPOT THE BLACK MAN!
Teleporting home.
Getting drunk at 3pm
and many many many more

HOW EPIC CAN WE GET?
More more memories like this pretty please (:
<3

xx,

fel

One Step Closer

2011-12-02T10:59:00.001+08:00

happy holidays honeypiessss (:

I don't want to screw this up. For real this time

I think i know what i really want.

xx,

fel

I have died everyday waiting for you <3

Tofu in a metal can

2011-12-01T03:01:00.001+08:00

Dear Tofu Heart,

Please give me more courage and strength i need you to be strong when shit happens and guard yourself no matter what. Because the walls around you has aged and you're going to be defenseless soon. It's bad when you go numb and can't feel anymore. That's when you go astray. Please do not allow that to happen.

Sincerely,

Owner of the heart

xx,

fel

Players only love you when they play.

2011-11-30T05:45:00.001+08:00

TWO QUEENS 10TH ANNIVERSARY @ AVALON.

A night of uncontrollable laughter,

A night of memories that will never be forgotten.

As usual when the epic two hangs out tons of epic shit happens. Looking forward to more nights like this minus off the over eating part (:

LOVE/HATE FALLING FOR SOMEONE.

I guess i am always the blind mice. Or is it the beer goggles? Hahaha!

Decipher me,

I don't care if she texts me - I CARE OKAY.

Hate this feeling, please go away.

Easy come easy gooooooo.

Thunder only happen when its raining,

Players only love you when they play.

xx,

fel

Sing you a love song.

2011-11-26T10:07:00.001+08:00

I love you girls like a love song.

xx,

fel

Will i ever find..

2011-11-23T09:10:00.001+08:00

JOY ?

xx,

fel

Will you walk with me?

2011-11-23T05:31:00.001+08:00

Good Morning emotional freeaaak.

xx,

fel

Don’t trust too much, don’t love too much, don’t hope too much. Because that too much can hurt you so much

Easilly affected

2011-11-22T09:46:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i hate myself for being that fragile.

The smallest thing can bring up my memories be it good or bad.

Even a god damn song with the emo-est lyrics can bring me to tears that easily.

Go imagine those morons who uses words to hurt me. GOOD JOB BRAVO VERY SMART!

I might just punch you in the nose in the past but not now.

In the mist of a learning process. LEARNING NOT TO CARE.

Seriously why do i have to live my life for you?

Sorry if am heartless or bla bla. Am just protecting myself.

xx,
fel

叫思念不要吵
我相信我已经快要
快要把你忘掉
跟寂寞再和好

Hey Shawty it's my birthday.

2011-11-21T03:57:00.001+08:00

Happy 23th Birthday to me.

(my twin, my split personality)

No more in denial. 23 is the number. Indeed a very happy birthday to me.

2 more years to mid year crisis this reminds me. Time is running up!

I've got so many things to accomplish. I shall just enjoy my 2011. Where my party people?! (:

Birthday week was awesome. Never had a week of celebration because of my hectic job but all thanks to my broken feet. Down with one foot but still feeling awesome. Friends come and go and i'm glad that along my life there are new found awesome friends. And thank you buggers who came in and crashed some of my friendships. But i believe that people can see for themselves and i had explain enough.

3 months of MC. I've been home, out and enjoying every moment. Finally a long break away from work. Been working for 4years for the C company. I guess it's a good chance for me to recharge. Away from work and away from hmm..you know dramas from everywhere. First two months being handicapped no where else other then home and Liz's place. I kinda had some of my thoughts cleared. Well no one can help you unless you help yourself first. Happier and fatter person, tell me about it. I've been eating and sleeping so much that i've gone out of shape. Can't work out much so yeah. Life of fat cat!

Well, living up the name of a drama queen. Dramas are everywhere. In any community. So i guess i've got a few fair share of each community.

Like what i've said im 23 this year and i definitely have a mind of my own.

Let's take risks, you'll never know the outcome. Life surprises you with ups and downs.

I know what am doing and will take responsibility on whatever happens.

Don;t want a boring life, we only live once don't wanna live life with regrets.

xx,

fel

Farewell somebody is going to miss you.

Faces in the dark.

2011-10-04T04:51:00.003+08:00

Awake as usual at this weird timing but today i feel exceptionally different.
The sudden down pour, it felt as thou the world is crying.
I enjoyed the perfect weather, cooling and comfortable.
I have a love/hate relationship with rainy nights.
Kinda gave me this cold and empty feeling, yes after so many years i still feel that inside.
Guess that no one will be able to enter my heart, so many walls built around it.

I would push someone away from me if i feel too comfortable with them
scares me.

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And whenever i am about to fall in love this song came to my mind.
Terrified.
My insecurity killed me.

Heavy thoughts

2011-09-04T04:48:00.003+08:00

i've always asked myself a million times. What do you really want in life?
Who are you bla bla bla...

I'm starting to fear myself. Doing things that i told myself i'll never do.
Whenever i start telling myself not to do it, i'll do it instantly.
The aftermath was never easy to face. And choosing not to face it instantly and continue whatever i was doing.
Until i couldn't fake it anymore that's when i truly break down.
Why am i always so messed up? And clearing up your own mess isn't a fantastic thing to do. No?
I don't want to face my true self. So delicate and small.
Tiring to put a strong front as always. But i just dont want to be that fragile little thing.
"Hurting others first before they can hurt you". Yeah childish much but it still exist in my world.
I am so fragile inside. The little heart here is not as strong as you think
Why is love such a torture. I know what i want, no maybe not too sure.
I am so messed up, in and out. I just want to be alone, i am sick and tired of being around with people who thinks am easy bitch, well try harder.
I had enough. Yes ENOUGH.
Partying is awesome having those girls to fill my emptiness well you girls didnt quite qualify for it. It was fun but at the end of the night it's just me against everything in my mind.

Sometimes i wish my mind is as lazy as how i love to laze on my bed. But fuck you don't always get what you want.

These thoughts are really freaking me out.
I can't see a future infront of me. The thought of that seriously freaks me out.
Because i have no ideal what i want.
Am so drained. From everything that is happening around me.
I have no rights to talk about perfect. I've no ideal what's being perfect.
Having to smile and act like am a happy person, seriously you guys doesn't know whats happening behind this mask.

....................................................................
IM NOT OKAY. quit asking.

privacy

2011-02-27T23:28:00.001+08:00

new to find new space

Lovers and Friends

2011-02-25T12:40:00.001+08:00

Friends are forever.

?

how?

Come live in my heart, and pay no rent.

2011-02-16T12:59:00.002+08:00

All humans should have some alone time.
Having to be alone at somewhere somehow eases my mind.
I love people watching but i hate people watching me. HAHAH!

Leaving in my own world sounds good but it's pretty unhealthy too
we all need someone to talk when we are feeling sad pouring out sorrows bla and bla and someone to share your happiniess with.
That's why i said "Some" alone time.
Too much alone time can really turn you into a psycho or someone with in-balance personality that equals to WEIRDO. HAHAH!

I had my alone time this week! Awesome shit.
Gonna meet Kee before she flies to Aussie for another 9months? :X

Let the devil rest in peace.

2011-01-27T23:33:00.003+08:00

At this point of time, air caressing my face.
The night seems so quiet, I can hear the wind talking to me.
Kill the devil inside you, let it rest.

I hate having to play with people's feeling, i don't know when to stop.
I had my feelings played over and over again.
It had become a phobia to me. Never to fall in love again.
Don't know how to trust love anymore.
This is scary, it's like darkness never want to enter again.
I cried till i feel numb and never want to feel it again.
The feeling is terrible, my heart felt like it has been ripped out.
Don't rip it out and put it back, it will never be the same anymore.
How to trust? How to love? How to open up and let someone in anymore?
I'm so tired to find the answer.

Let the devil in me rest in peace.
Keep the tears stay in me.
Stay strong.
:)

Who are we?

2011-01-26T19:18:00.003+08:00

pictures from the past.

I have someone telling me that whenever i appear as i don't care about how people sees me. I actually do care of how people sees me as deep down in me.

She told me that everytime whenever i appear to be strong and carefree, deep down in me i know i'm just pretending.

She told me when i wanted to change my appearance i just want to conceal my own i don't want anyone to know who i am.

She asked me this question, What do you really want? Who are you?

Sometimes i just hate people who can read me so easily.

She nailed everything, whatever she said was so true.

I'm not as strong as all of you thought i was. I need to rest.
Fuck all the rubbish seriously. :/

Oh. Fuck.

2011-01-17T00:45:00.002+08:00

Life is kinda messed up now.
But nvm 1 more day away from bkk
Let's get crazy! :D

Random photo of me at Kee's place.

Oh by the way that's kee at the back. HAHA

Morning's a peach?

2011-01-07T00:21:00.002+08:00

I can't keep up with the lovers on the street
I get my sunshine from the glow of my T.V.
I hear a waterfall is brimmin' in my eyes
You think I'm prettier, prettier when I cry
-Anya Marina's Morning's a peach.

current late night song playing in my list.

Words travel think before you act.

2011-01-06T12:11:00.002+08:00

i don;t know what you want.

gonna ignore for sure.

say hi and bye when i see you.

step off bitch!

SICK KID

2011-01-03T23:53:00.002+08:00

SICK ONCE AGAIN.

asshole. feel like shit now

Everytime i feel fat my body breaks down. Awesome isnt it?

My body rules. Skinny is the way to life, but i hate feel like shit.

Nose is falling apart seriously. I want to get well soon for JB. hahhaa! can't wait to buy contact lense i've been wearing clear lense i feel like a alien.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. why can't i post photos? fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk

very hungry,grumpy and zzzzzz.

Time : 3:20AM

2011-01-03T03:20:00.002+08:00

i've finally packed my room and i think i accidentally threw away my cable to connect my dvd player to my laptop. No more late night L word in my room. FUCK.

So i watched it in the living room just now, cheap thrill seriously. HAHA!

The L word is really by far the most eggciting show i've watched. Not forgetting The Simpsons and Family Guy.

i'm not talking about the sex in the show but the stories. Seriously you see the ugly side of humans and the most priceless moments.

Eg, Tasha leaving for Iraq, Alice and her cuddled on the beach till sun rise. priceless moments.
Eg, Shane wanting to move in with paige and her son. Fucking uncommon for shane (season 4)
but shane as a muthafuck in the end still cheat on paige. Nvm la she's fucking adorable! heh

okay nuff said. time to sleep! hate to face the old hag at work seriously.

Sometimes i really hate to say this but i've gotta admit it. I'm seriously dumb sometimes.

Having to trust someone yet she broke my trust. fucker

GOOD NIGHT.

Year 2011

2011-01-02T18:04:00.003+08:00

Suddenly got the urge to blog, i left this place un-touched for more then 3 years. Read my old entries and i really felt that i've grown up. Having to see things in a different point of view and not having that much of angst in me. I guess we all have to go thru this process in life.

Well, it's time for new year resolutions! Hey come on what's new? haha!

I want my year 2011 to be a blasting one. i really wish.

guess what even before i set my resolution i already accomplished one! heh!

-Maintain of weight or even lose more. 46KG yes that's the figure.

-Keeping my cool. That's quite a task for me.

-Be friendly to everyone! No "dao" moment.

-Not to get dead drunk for more then 3 times in 2011.

-Save some moolah for studies (another difficult task)

-Get inked.

-Open my doors and let someone in. I think it's time la lol so send in your application form! crap.

-Vocal lessons!

-No smoking when high (difficult task no.3)

-Having good relationship with my colleague (as you can see there is no "s". So i'm only refering to one)

-Talk to SS (mission accomplished) no more thrill :/ need to find new thrill.

-Hang out with old friends more often. Initiate more.

- Finish my espace parfum project soon. (difficult task no.4) KILLER

-Be more familiar to all fragrances (work related)

- Piercing"s"?

- Revamp my room i need new furniture and a whole new look.

- Need to let my hair grow a little longer.

- Master this drinking game call "DIAN ZHE GE BEI".

-No conflicts.

- Continue my collection of niche fragrances.

- a girlfriend? maybe?

- No impulse buying.

- A ipod

-A camera

- A new phone.

- no more losing of personal product, i lost my phone in 2010. FUG first time in my whole life.

- Take care of my skin. Getting old la huh. :/

- If i have extra time, dance lesson or yoga lesson.

- Tio toto or 4D. HAHA

- Try not to take cab to work, wake up earlier. Time is money.

Can't think of any now. Update soon.

And oh! Update blog more often. hehe

H O T .

2009-11-26T22:47:00.001+08:00

this is hotness.

life?

2009-11-23T23:19:00.003+08:00

SCREAMS i'm 21 this yearrrrrrrrrrr!
here comes adulthood. :)

i believe as you grow older the amount of drama in your life will kinda die down alittle.

and reminding myself time is running out.

sooooooooooooo...i need to accomplish some stuff before i turn into a old hag. LOL

and i need to change the habit of snoozing! that's the main reason why am i always rushing for time because of snoozing and therefore i google-d.
haha! actually i googled "how to lose weight fast" :S and it linked me to wikiHow.
somehow the related wikiHow attracted my attention therefore i clicked on this link.

http://www.wikihow.com/Know-How-Much-Sleep-You-Need
and it actually link me to...

http://www.wikihow.com/Meditate
http://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Hitting-the-Snooze-Button

tip:
You can also invest in a flying or moving alarm clock that you have to find or fetch to turn off!
omg! flying alarm clock. HAHHA!

okay lame, i need to go read the rest and learn how to meditate.

:)

no rice no bread.

2009-08-25T00:21:00.005+08:00

very high, half sober.

i can't stop thinking of this. I'M SO FAT. i hate my arms, my tummy, my thighs and my butt~
sometimes when i look into the mirror i feel like puking i'm just disgusted with my excess FATS.
and whenever i see myself with jeans i feel like im a fatso. and my thighs they are the most disgusting parts of my body i hate themmmmmmm! ahhhhhhh! i wanna die!
i wanna wear a pair of white jeans but i can't! AH!

tell me how sinful. u see u see u see!

u see those super chubby cheeks? AHHHH

oh, a photo of my current "loved" outfit :D

i felt super guilty after this but it was...

DAMN GOOD :(

you seeee! even this kind of angle i still look CHUBBY! :(

yes i call this the perfect angle.

see, NO JAWLINE... :(

okay, nvm i shall go on a no bread no rice diet.

phuture with my darl! MAYIE!

i feel like chopping my hair off, it's really a bad choice. but im so sick and tired of my hair. IT'S SO BORING. It's neither long or short. but i can't chop it real short CAUSE my face fat! roar!
I HATE BEING FAT.

On the brighter side i'm gg to the land of "SHOP TILL YOU DROP" bangkok!
I CAN'T WAIT WAIT WAIT...
:D

Baby, hush hush

2009-07-19T21:03:00.009+08:00

we can't simply please everyone in this world, fuck it be yourself :)

updates!
by looking at the photos below you guys can simply tell, i have been club active nowadays!
apart from that CHANEL sales conference was a lot of fun we played the amazing race chanel version running in and out of the van to places where i will never go and eating stuff i will never ever want to try overall it was super fun!

well, club active dosen't mean getting drunk guess what i was not drunk on all these days! i'm super proud of myself and will keep up the good work! clubbing nowadays is super fun because we simply laugh at the smallest thing when we are "happy" high like even getting whip cream on our lips and take photo can make us giggle like mad!

my new "eat till you die" place goes to crystal jade @ holland V. Their buffet dinner is cheap and yummy with free flow of xiao long bao! oh geez i can have them all in my tum! but seriously i felt like dying after the meal. over eat stomach nearly explode how power. LOL!

i miss dancing @ Oschool and i really really want to register for my vocal class, hmm.. maybe after september because im going to BANG to the KOK with may! wooooohoooooooo shop till you D-R-O-P! drop!

gonna be 21 soon, how old :(

Choux Pastry Heart

2009-05-24T23:50:00.005+08:00

I'm back!

back with tons of photos.
got nothing to talk about.

Pet Society!
1.) I'm at my brother's place playing his guitar!
2.) i can't help but to take a photo with mingwei's pet totally look like his owner!
3.) rockstar escarlata!

ZOUKIE :D

random!

asahi beer session with daph and irene!

Orange juice is good for you :)
not when u add vodka :D

that's it for now!

stars in the sky.

2009-03-28T00:10:00.005+08:00

Finally i feel the urge to update! Nothing much to talk about other then work and that is so boring but nvm i will squeeze out some interesting event that happen for the past months.
Attended my cousin's wedding on the last day of feb it's great meeting people where by i won't be seeing them unless there's like special events or festival we talked like how we use to and my cousin's daughter is ultra cute. Don't worry there's a picture of cutie estelle :D

Picnic with the carrie,may and lyn at botanical garden was fun we had potluck. Not forgetting we eat till our tummy nearly burst and whacking ants with our slippers while eating! LOL!
Auntie mayie is organizing a trip to the underwater world! I'm excited!

Went to yvonne's farewell party at teo heng we sang our hearts out and paid like erm 8 bucks? That's uber cheap. Cheap K-session at teo heng :D

Haven been meeting lin and the rest everyone's like so busy and our shedule always clash i really miss those time where we can spend time together doing nothing, like just chit chatting and planning our futures. Minilintanyilin if you see this you better start asking me out! :D

DblO with mandy this month and yea what u expect when u see DblO meaning drunkards la! yes im finally drunk after so many damn months it wasnt a good cos i have to work the next day. Argh i feel like dying went i got to work and i hate that feeling so much that now when i drink i drink as little as i can. Now whenever there's drinking session im also the Miss very sober! Haa! don't be suprise missy dont love alcohol as much as before :)

mom's birthday this month :) we went over to sushi teh for dinner and off to movies! Guess what did we watched? COMING SOON i can say im like super brave and mommy too. i can say that movies is super shocking not very scary :S

now back to work. Work has been great but the politics are killing me i dont understand why some people can be so childish. Anyway no comments for them just hope that their mouth can stay far far away from me. If not i'll proberly shoot them with a gun. Haha!

Guess it's gonna be a while for me to update because next month shedule's out and i will be working like a slave so people bless me that i wont fall sick :)

Ciao :)

(Picnic with the girls)

(Cousin's wedding)

(Cutie Estelle :)

(Mom's Birthday)

i need to go for a haircut soon :)

grey in colour

2009-01-29T01:46:00.002+08:00

happy lunar new year all, this year's new year still remains as what i did for the past few years. Visiting relatives, socialising, collecting angbaos and not forgetting mahjong and blackjack with the cousins.

i'm really starting to feel old by seeing my little cousin when they wasn't in school to now they are in primary school and some even secondary school. I remembered those days whereby i always boss around scolding them and making them cry, i feel that they respected me in a way whatever i say they will follow my insructions because thats the only way of not getting scolded by me. Haha! okay i admit im quite mean at times but in a funny way :)

And as years pass not just feeling old but stress at the same time i got no ideal what to do in future the same old problem i face years back. I've got no goals to aim for. For now it will be going back to school get a bloody cert and get more certs at the same time i have to work like a bull to earn those money in order to get those certs. And what to do after those cert collection? Okay, dumb question. I need to work obviously but work as what? 9-6 jobs are just to bored for and service jobs is too tiring. What to do that's going to be life just face it.

chinese new year is the days whereby people gain tons and tons of weight can you imgaine just for a few days i can gain like 1 freaking kg that is scary. Who can resist goodies like pineapple tarts, love letters, bak kwa and the list goes on. And i feel damn bloated for the past few days eating 5-6 meals a day is crazy and thats what i did. Blame it on boredom.

argh, cny is over and i have to go on diet again and do some exsercise.

Let's face reality and work hard for the future.

When the music starts playing my tears starts flowing.

2008-12-22T01:29:00.002+08:00

Countdown to christmas and to a brand new year, im not looking forward to it as usual.

I remembered when i was a kid i love christmas because all the kids will be at my aunt's place snatching candies and play blind mice.

but not now, cos we no longer get excited over candies and we dont play blind mice now.

kids are so easily contented unlike now we "young" adults.

anyway cold weather like this makes me feel sucky especially after watching jap drama one litre of tears. oh gosh can u imagine i cried like mad while watching every single episode i cried like mad last night watching the 9th ep. i even hesitate to watch because im afraid my eyes will swell the next day and i will look sucky with my makeup on but still..i watch it and vola my eyes swelled. it was super uber sad man! i couldn't stop crying until i have to call may and talk to her and even asked her to tell me jokes to make me stop crying. shit i still got 2 more eps to go, now i know why this drama is named one litre of tears. i shed more den 1 litre la! haha!

my feet hurts like *)&$*! i bought a new pairs of heels for work because the previous pair is spoilt and i shall not expose how its damage. omg the pair of new heels is 3inches tall and the old one is only 1 inch. bloody hell i couldn't find the similar one no choice ended up buying the 3inches heels. or i can say kenna sabo. anyway nvm taller meaning look slimer but (#*$&! hurts like mad!

i'm so irritated by customers asking me whether got discount/promotion/free gifts?

go airport buy cheaper right?

first of all our brand never had discounts. i can say NEVER!

even if there is, it's a promotion by the departmental store not us.

and hello you yourself know go airport buy confirm cheaper one mah why ask?

if everyone go airport buy we mind as well dont not open any counters other den in the airport right?

come here try and try den go airport buy, damn annoyed super annoyed.

can't stand! ROAR!

imagine in a day u hear all this shit more then 20 over times and u have to repeat the same thing over and over again confirm go crazy.

okay my complains ends here.

time is running out and

i hate being lonely.

fuck.

Bloody 2.

2008-11-22T23:48:00.007+08:00

MIA for damn long. ah watever la!
anyway uploaded photos from my birthday celebration!
i enjoyed my ZOUK/PHUTURE night!
other then that was kinda sucky, nvm watever.

Okay, picture time!

sipping on my favourite bandung before heading into zouk :)

..and touchups :)

MAY :D

Rachie!

Snaps!

Carrie :D

Sober and sian. LOL

Hello! more drinks?

Happy high! :)

you know who?

pokes! LOL

That's rachie giving me some love.

Here's Carrie again!

Sheila LOVE! :D

woohoo, FLAMING :D

now show me your moves!

this pictures says HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

peace :)

Look who's drunk!

Their mission that night was to make me drunk but BOO~ they failed.

Big wide smile.

2008-10-31T00:27:00.002+08:00

the last day of oct, i realise i haven been blogging much this month.
my roster is filled with "F" meaning FULL SHIFT and ermm meaning more moolahs, so i'm not complaning :)

since it's the last day of oct i decided to blog and nonsense again :D
heeheee..

argh i've to wake up early tomorrow damn isetan for having pointless meeting! BOO!
work has been great, met really crazy people at work! super fun to work with!
endless crapping and shit im really loving it.
but again fake-os please go to HELL. BOO double times!

i've been walking pass utopia very frequently nowadays because im in love with the ban mian at roxy square!
and..whenever i walk pass i seriously feel like getting inked!
but again i can't decide what to ink.

on a random day when i was bored i went to flip open my old photo album and saw my mom's wedding photo and she look so pretty and sooooo tattoo-able! HAHA!
so suddenly i have a thought of having my mom's face inked on my back but again it sounded quite retarted.

2 WEEKS TO MY BDAY! :D
i can't wait to meet up with my deary girls :)

lemme tell you guys a secret, i haven been shopping for like months and i really really need some new clothes and blings :(

i need to shop bloody soon!
JB with cavis in 10 days time!

That's not my name.

2008-10-24T19:27:00.002+08:00

I'M SICK!

i didn't go for training but i went to work!
go imagine 2 days of full shift.
i know im crazy :D
SO.... i is sibei powerzxzxzxz! HAHA

and finally today i get to rest!
and! blog about random shit!

miss rachie also damn random! she suddenly msn me to tell me i look like brittany on paris's new BFF she was saying my style la not my face! and oh ya i love her style and her messy hair :D

shit i suddenly got nothing to talk about..
ok till then~~
peace! *pisss*
BYEBYE :)

sick.tired.busy.

2008-10-21T01:34:00.003+08:00

woo! JAWLINE :D

i feel that im soooo going to be sick :(

read my nonsense and don't complain :)

eh why she so skinny ah!?

how come they eat and eat and eat they still so skinny..

how come they dont excersice + eat a lot still so skinny...

WHY SOME GIRLS CAN BE SOOOO SKINNY WHEN THEY EAT A LOT + BOOZE A LOT!

:( i'm not jealous but i'm like damn curious! (ya right your not jealous) *

i always tell myself im not hungry but ended up eating a lot!
my stomach parking lot is like a multi storey carpark la!

food not nice = at least finish 60% i dont like wasting food

food not bad = finish up everything.

extremely yummy food = finish up everything x2.

ok nuff rubbish.

last thing to say I'M ALWAYS HUNGRY!

lord save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

zzz..need to head to my bed now!

training tomorrow from 9am - 6.30pm, damnnnnn long la their session what shit stuff can they talk about man.

AHH! 1.42am already got to wake up at 6.30am!
i better pop some panadol and go off to bed now.

:D good night PEEPers.

sparkling sparks.

2008-09-29T21:37:00.002+08:00

20 days of work without a single off day. "i is very power"

and finally tadah MY OFF DAY :)

but im starting to miss work.

last sat went to powerhouse to celebrate pong's freedom, haven been to clubs for like a month. i'm not missing a bit of it hmm..maybe just the booze :)

will be heading to zouk this week because i promise my dearest sheila ah lian. haha!

october will be another busy month for me. chiong-ing work also :) and oh ya not forgetting those october babys. birthday parties! weeeee :D

Quackquackquack

2008-09-10T02:13:00.003+08:00

i will be working, working and working till 25sep.
20 days straight without resting.
super chiong but yea anyway got nothing to do also nvm la just work!
end off the month i'll have a lot of moooooooooolahs.
i think i shld chiong oct also. den i wont spend my sep pay.
by nov i will have even more mooooooooooolahs!
LOL!

i'm having this "i wanna MIA" feeling.
like again.
i fucking dont understand why also!
ROAR.

argh, watever!
goodnight people.

That girl is so dangerous.

2008-09-01T01:27:00.002+08:00

Notice you, noticing me.

Last wed powerhouse-ed with the "double Cs" girls!
no offence but there's lotsa of weirdos there.
mainland women dancing aimlessly on the stage i was laughing like mad.
left powerhouse @ around 2plus and off to phuture with cavis!
met mayie,huishi, kals and his acc there i still prefer party-ing at zouk.
slept at around 5am have to work the next day! afternoon shift still not that bad
until....
my colleague called me at 9am saying that she wasnt feeling well ask me whether i could help her cover her shift meaning full shift~
aka miss nice over here~~help her la!
totally smashed at the end of the day :S

friday = zouk night and unlimited amount of alcohol :))))
fullstop

saturday=baybeats with the daluu peeeeps
and suwei just cant stop laughing. her laughter ( HAHAHAH*pause*HAHAHAHAHA)

sunday=nua.. nua.. and still nua-ing.

The "DOUBLE Cs" girls :D

Vonker :D

i seen her type before she's so dangerous,

that girl is so dangerous.

Looking at you.

2008-08-27T05:28:00.002+08:00

i tried sleeping and i failed, when i can't sleep i tend to think of a lot of nonsensical things.
thought of my past, present and future.

VERY FUNNY HOR.
a bit siao right.
SIBEI RANDOM RIGHT?

anyway..LOL
im happy with my present thou im not earning as much as my last job but im happy with it!
doing something i like :)
dont have the "aiyah sian tomorrow got to work" feeling lol!
but the ":D tomorrow got work" feeling.

my past was erm...nvm nothing happening
a lot of silly things done, thinking back just makes me feel sooooo...
RETARTED!
created so many drama scenes HAHA! really eh!
my dearest friends you know what im talking about.
VERY "throw face"(translate to chinese) man!
keep it to yourself hor! :D :D :D

and tadah FUTURE!
hmm...no ideal let's see how it goes!
:)

meeting up my "double C" girls later at night!

I LOVE 萧敬腾 !

2008-08-26T17:33:00.002+08:00

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I LOVE 萧敬腾.

if only his my bf!
ok stop day/night dreaming :D

Lemme blow ya mind :D

2008-08-22T01:12:00.003+08:00

.enid drew my face on my water bottle. :)

worked for 7 days and i dont feel super tired at all because i enjoy working with my new colleagues!
they are really really fun and lovely people and yes i have to repeat except for one.

yessar! tomorrow finally off~ :)
i was super piss today man!
i've never met such rude colleague in my whole life.
HELL TO HER (pig)
anw nvm forget it~

next week i think i'll be working at katong counter :(
sad!
i will miss linda,mandy and enid!
and those who i met at the promo!
they also super cute and nice!
miss naughty dorine!
and CAVIS we have so much in common.
celine our makeup specialist might look fierce but she also damn crazy one ah! :D

CHANEL girls are all friendly except for one! :)
and those i met at training also damn nice :)))
and oh ya robinson's staff also nice lor!
even the security guard who took care of our promo atrium also damn nice!
happpppppppy! hopefully katong chanel girls also as nice :)

.Enid, me, dorine and rafidah

.me and crazy enid. :D

.cupcakes bought by mandy for me and cavis only! PIG MEI YOU! HAHA

Chanel lastest colours :)

.me and mandy at fly.

and tadah that's Cavis :D

anna sui bracelet! thank yvonne :D

and a random picture of me and marvin!

CHANEL :)

2008-08-19T00:56:00.002+08:00

been super tired!
work and work and still work.
but with crazy and nice colleague time pass super fast!
i'm starting to miss them already!
and ya except for one :X
LOL! :)

oh ya miss sheila bought a nail colour from me! what a supportive friend!
LOVE YOU!

toot toot train.

2008-08-14T21:09:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS MY OFF DAY!

working is super duper tiring i have to stand in heels for the whole day!
KILL ME PLEASE!
other then that working is fun!
i've got nice colleagues :)

went training yesterday and omg there's like so many things to memorise.
i'm still quite blur at work cox i dont really know how much does their item cost where they keep their stock.
ps:/ i work for 2 days only! LOL

gotta work tmr! :)

miss deb and me!

We said let go but i kept on hanging on.

2008-08-07T03:07:00.011+08:00

BANG! your going down.

currently hooked on the song I stay in love by mariah carey.
im always a big fan of mariah carey her songs and her voice just brings out the emo-ness inside me.
the lyric just make me wanna tear for no bloody reason!
im not in the heartbroken mode but still yea this song freaking hell sad.
sooo eh, ya watever la!

alright i woke up like 10.30am today met debra at tanah merah and off to our popeye session!
she's like my popeye chicken kahki man! she's always the one asking me to eat that! and that's making me very very very fat but who can resist good food :)
after having our tummy filled with yummy junk food we headed to city plaza.
went to check out those wholesale clothing stores because miss deb is starting a online shop with her friend! do give some support will post their link once their shop is up!
she went home around 4 to study how hardworking!
so i took a train home and on the way home...miss impulsive is my middle name me suddenly have the thought of cutting bangs and tadah i've got bangs! because i dont feel like clipping up my hair while working.

went home relax for a while then off to bedok inter!
met vonker and the rest there and headed to astons for minilintan birthday celebration!
a lot of photos taken will post when mini send me.
*mini got very very very dirty/smelly/sticky/creammmmy on her 19th birthday*
but i still love this mini/tiny/small/short/cute/blur friend of mine! :D

Miss debdebchan!

2 june! pre minlintan and mitchell's birthday celebration!

we went blu jazz to drink.
i swear im a sucker for beer, drank 2 or 3 mugs and im starting to feel high :S
the fucking first time i see yilin so drunk!
she kept laughing for like no reason and seem to love everyone when she's drunk
ok i shouldn't bring it up!

Manual sliming effect

waterfall for mitchell and mini

check out minilintanyilin's cleavage :0

happy 19th birthday! :)

*swimming tmr with minilintanyilin

now hit me with your best shot.

2008-08-06T02:35:00.003+08:00

i haven't been being emo for a "nong nong" time.
seriously i was shock and very proud of myself.
the last time i teared was...erm..
last month! was watching CJ7 i damn lag but yea i cried cox damn touching.

now, let me tell you why i will always emo.

not because im a huge fan of those emo punk rock shit.
not because i fall out of a relationship.

because life is not going the way i want it to be.
guess it's suppose to be this way thats why im not complaining.

parents not in good terms, sucky issue but not my fault either.

i hate to be at home because im always alone
staying at home sometimes just makes me feel terrible.
but yea penny-less so i choose to stay at home. LOL

sometimes i wonder why am i born this way
i dont want to be so complicated
i dont want to have so much stress in my life

i somehow find my life rather sucky
but what to do.
life goes on.
ROAR!

and..
bloooody hell chanel haven call!
WHERE'S MY SHEDULE?!
alright now!
salute to the EMO QUEEN!

ok not very funny.
:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINILINTANYILIN!!

19 already one more year and you will hit 20!

don't you dare call me old!

black&white

2008-08-04T18:52:00.004+08:00

out of boredom i went to google for black&white photos.
i've always love black&white photos!
very very classic!

Heart related photos.

i love the second picture, it's actually snow tracks.

some vintage ones here.
i dig the third one!

compare picture 2 with the first picture right on top, now tell me what do you see?

and some random ones.
.

alright that's all!

PEACE! :)

Cricket...last longer

2008-08-01T01:33:00.006+08:00

HELLO!
M.I.A for damn long was busy with singing comp, interviews and catching up with friends.
uploading a few photos currently having the "feel like blogging" feeling. lol
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MISTER JOHN AKA LAO PEH.
got 3rd for the comp! woooo meaning i've got some moolah to bank in. :D
interview with chanel was a success :) i've got a job like finally!

went swimming with june and mini today, finally i got a little tanner :D

then off to parkway for dinner.

swimming with mini and her family members last thurs!

BSS singing comp with bro!

semi finals and we both got into the finals :)

i can't remember which day i think it's a saturday! met mingwei and his friend. Went to eat sushi at tamp, fetch sheila and off to museum! ohh, we went mount sophia too! nice place :)

*cheap karoke session with vonker and guowei sooooon! :)

i'm so healthy!

2008-07-25T17:37:00.002+08:00

MY BODY IS ACHING!

Swimming with the Tan family yesterday!
how fun!
i actually "anyhow" swam for like hrs.
hahahaha!
i heck la as long as i move in the water is consider swimming ok!
more sessions like this please minilintanyilin.
:))))))))))

When i grow up.

2008-07-18T16:37:00.004+08:00

sweet yea?

took out my piercing yesterday nw i feel naked without dem.

and i cannot resist walking into nail palor.
i feel damn sucky when i have ugly nails and i cannot have my nails painted by myself in a proper and nice way.
so i have to spend money to get people to do it for me instead.
im a happy girl after getting my manicure done look at my own nails for hours because its just so nice!
after that few hours i feel like stabbing myself to death la!
no money already still go do manicure, i cannot resist la!
now i feel damn sucky because i dont have money to go out with my friends!
like watch movie la, having dinner at simpang and etc.

my fault la never work, i just cant find suitable jobs ah!
need to concentrate on my singing comp. (another excuse)
YA I KNOW i can work while im in a singing comp
ok la im just a lazy ass.

so lazy ass me sat infront of my comp surf website for jobs
and had sent out a few resume.
hope they will reply me soon
or esle...

i'll have to do the same thing for the next few days.
yea big deal.
i know it's a weekend but so what, go have fun and dont bother me!

ask me out to somewhere, where by i dont need to spend a single cent.
argh, what a dumb statement okay nvm i'll stay home.

When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick when I step out on the scene

Baby I'm Yours :) awwwwwwwww.

2008-07-16T14:33:00.003+08:00

awwwwwwwwww, the song by artic monkeys - baby i'm yours!

so damn sweeeeeeet!

it has been in my comp for ages and i didnt realise

was clearing up my mp3 folder and i randomly click on this song and now im hook to it!

i know i slow ah but i still cant help saying.

WHY THIS SONG SO SWEEEEEEET!

the lyrics so damn sweet!

rythem so damn cute!

iyer i so wanna fall in love, hahhaha! kidding la

Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)

And I'll be yours until the stars fall from the sky,

Yours, until the rivers all run dry

In other words, until I die

Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)

And I'll be yours until the sun no longer shines,

Yours, until the poets run out of rhyme

In other words, until the end of time

I'm gonna stay right here by your side,

Do my best to keep you satisfied

Nothin' in the world could drive me away

'Cause every day, you'll hear me say

Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)

And I'll be yours until two and two is three,

Yours, until the mountains crumble to the sea

In other words, until eternity

see very very sweet right!

awwwwwwwww, i can imagine this song playing on wedding dinners.

super uber sweeeeeet :)

:)

2008-07-14T23:41:00.002+08:00

mahjong, singing comp and bowling!

okay im starting to like this kind of weekends other then heading to zouk.

mahjong @ shawna's place on friday :)

damn im always the biggest loser.

well, i got into the finals with my bro! weeee i need money~

saturday went bowling at downtown e-hub

i suck at first cleaning the "lokang" consistantly

but later on hurhur i got better~! but my arm damn sore cox i threw damn hard.

haha!

yea more happy/healthy weekends like this! :))))

Hey supp sucker!

2008-07-01T14:54:00.003+08:00

Super uber bored!

You might be thinking why the hell am i still staying home slacking and not finding a new job.
That's the question im like asking myself too!
answer to that hmm.. four letters : L A Z Y !

i'm enjoying life of a bummer,slacker and etc.
but my bank account is drying up soon!
so nowadays from mon-thurs i'll be stuck at home.
Mon-Thurs maybe even Fri i'll be home-d!
Things i'll be doing when im at home:
wake up at around 9-11am
check my msn, switch on tv,channel surf, make myself some breakfast continue to channel surf later on back to comp, channel surf, wait for mom to come home, have lunch, channel surf, bath, sing kalaokay, msn with whoever is msn-ing with me, wait for dinner and watch tv from 7-11pm and go to bed.

Life of a bummer and a fatty pompom gonnabe!
it's like super un-healthy man i bearly walk like 200 steps per day.
if i'm born with loads of cash, i'll be out everyday and shop till i drop good way to excersice don't you think so?

well actually the bedok swimming complex and stadium is like freaking near to my place just a five mins walk i can just walk there to do some excersice but im so damn freaking lazy to change into the excersicing gear and get my ass there. *hopeless*

that's why i stopped complaining that im fat! I KNOW im fat shut up.
due to laziness thats what you get.

OMG OMG!
hahahhahahaa!
shit i cannot stop laughing.
guess what?
well everyone knows msn has this function
Show What I'm Listening To:
connected to windows media player
but windows media player also allow you to watch whatever video!
Show What I'm Listening To: LESBIAN ATTACK XXX ___ sexyteens
hmm..im not sure whether his trying to be funny or seriously watching it.
but his not those "trying to be funny type".
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA! ooooops!

that shall end my post today!
:D

Trust no one but yourself.

2008-06-24T05:17:00.006+08:00

Time: 5:47am

i slept at 1am and im awake now! i can't sleeeeeeeeeep.
alright i shall post my random pictures since i haven't been posting photos and updating.

Alcoholic! XD

Marvin got cut off!

That's vonker!

I swear she started it first.

Picture Perfect!

Peace yo!

omg super funny! June you're lucky you deleted all your unglam shots~

4am - supa bored, 3 vids created.

2008-05-28T16:15:00.007+08:00

as supa bored, sang 3 songs.
sang it at around 4am, voice not really stable!
so sorry bout some vocal problems, forgeting of lyrics and some off pitch here and there!
enjoy!

*while loading i shall update.
got a new hairstyle it's supa awful cox it's damn flat! foooook!
i can't stand myself without any piercings, took out my surface piercing near my collar bone because it's starting to reject.
well, yesterday went to parkway alone to check on my phonehand line.
i was so damnnn tempted i walked into stege and tadah, got my brows *POKED*
mom and bro haven't found out yet all thanks to me *BANG BANG*! good coverage
this time round the piercing went smoothly! haha, no pain no pain.
it's super fast unlike surface piercing, surface piercing do hurt a little.
now i got a problem, washing my face, drying my face and sleeping.
i swear online shopping kills! love those pretty clothes! hohoho!
which means i need more moolahs! alright i need to get a job soon before im officially BROKE!

*vids deleted*

say it again for me.

2008-05-14T16:35:00.001+08:00

i'm too lazy to upload pictures.
so no picture for this post.

i'm in a very irritated mood right now, don't know why also.
oh, not pms i think.

why am i not some happy go lucky bitch?
i hate being emotional and i simply can't help it.

why are you feeling so emotional right now?
i don't know how to explain, no matter how hard i explain you won't be able to get it.

i hate being alone and sometimes i feel damn annoyed by those people around me.
i think it's just me, thinking way too much.

pretending to be happy kills.
and am like almost killed.

i just hate this place, can i leave this place and go to somewhere, where no one knows me.
i need a new life.
nothing motivates me to move on with life
what's so good about moving on with life whereby you won't find doing anything can make you happier?
old shit happens over and over again

don't say i understand what your going thru
now shut your bullshit
your not me and you fucking dont understand what im going thru and feeling right now.

i wish i can just sleep forever and not think of anything, but i fucking can't.
i don't want to be such a complicated person.
guess im born with this, i didn't make myself complicated
i'm born this way.

need to sleep early this few days something big is coming up for me
gotta stay out of alcohol and do more exsercise.
and i don't want to be a fat bitch but gastric problem is killing me.
meaning i can't starve and dont eat.
everytime i eat i want to vomit them all out.

i'll kill you right before i die.

watch dem fly on their little bike (bicycle)*

2008-05-11T07:44:00.002+08:00

urge to blog!
let's talk about EXTREME GAMES!
woohoo, im sooooooo inrested in X-games!
speaking of that, i love how man fly on their little bic!
those whips and all! i love watching bmx-ing then skateboarding.
the reason why i skate is because bmx will lead to serious injuries plus...
BIKE EXPENSIVE LA! <

seriously call me nuts or what, i dont mind sitting down watching pple ride for hours
it's like damnnn entertaining! haha! most pple will say, WALAO sit there watch pple crash and all sibei boring man! i LOVE to watch dem CRASH! SUPER EVIL! HAHA!
everytime i watch i'll be like eyer, why never fall down no excitment sia! HAHA!

BUT one thing if a girl sits down at any parks those guys will think that your like some groupie because "some other girls" are.
they spoil trend la!
i'm not there to hook on any "cute" bmx rider nor skaters i'm just there to watch!
but i do find them attractive in a way like hmmm.. talented~! not every one will risk their life to do this kind of sports.
and yea, way cooooooler! HAHA!

okay enuff of me yaking how cool x-games is, im off to watch x-games 2008 held in shanghai on channel 23!
PEACE!

I FEEL VERY VERY VERY. . .

2008-04-17T12:18:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling very very very

helpless,moody,angry,sad,emotional,tired,blur and irritated.

i feel like. . .

crying,screaming,dying,sleeping and travelling.

i don't know why . . .

-am i angry with myself

-i hated my life

-i have so many things to be worried off

-i can't slove my personal problems

-am i doing things that i know it's wrong

-am i repeating the same mistakes over and over again

- am i pretending to be happy

-trying to please everyone

-i always cry before going to bed

-am i feeling so fucking stressed up

i'm feeling very very very confused.

fuck life.

i'm suffering in slience.

i want to let loose.

will you listen to me?

Tell me.

2008-04-16T10:27:00.002+08:00

tell me im not stressed up because i dont know where to get money for my up-coming studies.

tell me im not wondering what to do in future

tell me im not feeling very very emotional right now

tell me that im not going to be wasted the next time i club

tell me im not missing my old chics

tell me that my dad might lend me money for my up-coming studies

tell me im not feeling very aim-less

argh~! im feeling so damn stressed up!

anyway, didn't club last friday.
too sick to club.
don't ask me why i always club.
=X

no more drama, mama.

2008-04-10T15:43:00.002+08:00

guess what.
she's drunk again.
like again you know!
the "she's" is me!

once again i thought i was about to die, i swear beer kills when you mix it up with long island tea. long island tea is a killer and with beer it's monster! Bravo fel you have made a fool out of yourself again.

may told me how foolish i was OMFG la!
here goes.

Went to zouk's toliet, knocking on occupied cubicles asking them to pee faster because i need to pee badly. Making weird comments example like my asshole hurts. wahaha! woah i just laughed at myself.
sat outside zouk right opposite the hotdog cart, baby talking and all. Trying to puke but cant. Spill water all over myself. sibei tak glam la!
asking the bangala sweeping the floor to go away because they are too smelly. OMG i seriously cannot remember saying that.
Cab home on the cab, started complaining to the taxi driver that the song his playing in his cars is too damn emo. started crying like nuts, complaining how hard my life was. bla bla bla

Here is the fucking drama part, i thought i was about to die or paralyzed!
after all those drama in the cab it continues to the void deck under my place
i couldn't breath! so i cried like as thou i was about to die
omg, this happened for like the second time.
the first time was killer red wine,beer and chivas.
after dont know how long then i felt better but i suddenly feel that i cannot move my hands
and i thought i was going to be paralyzed! how drama! i know it sounds funny but if your there i swear you will be damnnnn scard go ask may and sheila! hahaha! imagine if i just die infront of them due to alcohol posioning?! WAHAHA. omg i couldn't believe i just laughed at myself again.
they try massaging my hands asking me to relax i fall asleep.
the most amusing part is!
i woke up and said omg did i drama just now? i kept saying sorry till my door step
i mean it by kept saying ok! i think i repeating sorry for more den 50 times in just a few mins.
SEE GIRLFRIENDS ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU!
kekeke!
MAYIE damnnnn mean i swear! she said walaoo so big size still wan to baby talk!
OEI! i was DRUNK
i did remember stuff too OKAY!
i was just semi DRUNKED!
ceasar salad guy! rachie's friend, i dont know him but i saw his pictures at rachie's facebook. i was super uber random i saw him and i went eh! you rachie's friend the famous ceasar salad guy! omg! fel ah fel! u sibei tak glam leh u! HAHA i regreted making that move sibei malu!
oh man i need to put a mask whenever i head to zouk man!
so from now on no more beer and long island tea! MONSTER!

i got something to announce nothing proud but yea i've got sacked!
TA MA DE! can't blame la im a MC queen.
too much late night bitching, late night dancing, late night skating and drama mama nights!
ahh! got to search for a new job and YEA im heading back to school!
need to save up for school! ah! why isnt my parents some millionaire!?
nvm! anyway yea i seriously miss those lecture notes. sounded crazy but ya i miss studying.
oh ya and i just burst a uber huge pimple on my cheek hohoho.
argh i hate PIMPLES.

no party pictures taken last night, my lg viewty spoil!
tamade! sent for repair~
damn damn damn fook that lousy pok phone!

Now, keep on counting. . .

2008-04-01T14:03:00.002+08:00

the craziest shit in my whole life.

i've always wanted something extreme.

but! im sooooo sooooo scard.

pick up my courage on sunday.

went parkway alone to get this surface piercing done.

took a bus there, while on the bus i called weijie and talk to him

i was damn nervous!

talked to desmond, he show me some pictures of random surface piercings.

filled up form, bla bla waited for him to get his equipment done

ok, you ready? i was like yea i think so.

HAHA! woahhh. i was DAMN DAMN nervous.

thru out the whole process i swear im damn noisy at first

like asking him eh what are you doing now.

are you going to pierce it now. bla bla bla

he just kept saying dont worry dont be nervous and started humming random song.

LOL!

i stopped talking after i saw the needle.

ah! omg i cant believe im doing this!

he was like so how do you feel now?

*slient*slient*

he asked again.

i said omg sorry my brain a bit not functioning.

but ok i can feel that i'm offically pierced!

HAHAHAH!

okok lame lame!

HEHEHE.

more more piercings! =X

anyway the healing process is damn annoying.

freaking itchy!

Sometimes, i wonder.

2008-03-17T02:10:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, i wonder why love can be so complicated?

haven been posting much photos.

reason is because im always updating my blog in the office.

now i'm finally home-d and got the mood to post dem up.

so there it goes.

oh ya did some recording session at MW's place

damn fun!

ok i need more pratice! =)

dance lesson tomorrow and thursday!

i'm a happy girl when it comes to attending dance lesson!

chiou huey and me @ MOS.

i kinda miss her when she's not in town.

SHEILA! =)

MINI LIN!

JUNE! @ The Arena

All ready to party! =D

PHUTURE LOVE!

very very drunk night =x

Skateboarding night~

till then,

okay, it's time to stop dreaming fel.

WAKEUP!

It's Monday Biatch!

2008-03-03T14:08:00.003+08:00

It's Monday!
ahhh!
Imagine 3 weeks without dance lesson!
im going to be soooooo fat again!
roar.
and i guess the dieting plan is working~
and woohooo i lost 2kgs!
ok i can be slim even when im not having my emo days! hee.
-
met jj at tamp last night.
ate sushi and drank my fav vanilla latte!
got my tragus ear ring!
the bloooody ball is so damn small and hard to screw in
at the end i ask the lady working there to help to get the ring screwed properly
but the moment i reach home i realise one side of the "ball" thing is missing!
goshh. there goes 12 bucks!
after dat met lin watched the leap years with her
well, the movie aint really fantastic but kinda like touching in some ways
and i dont know whats wrong with me
i always cry after watching the movie not while watching
i was talking to lin about certain scene where i find it very touching and out of a sudden i find myself tearing.
so imagine me out with a hot date. omg cannot imagine! Haha..that is sooooo embarassing.
after movie we took the last bus home.
and there goes our emo bus ride
with emo songs playing on our mp3.
i just couldn't help it but to think of the past.
"FUYOH"! enuufff! hahaha.
-
and partying on the leap year! how cool and i didn't get myself drunk!
i was very very very very sober!
i remembered every single thing that happened that night
and i dont want to!
i guess i wont be going to phuture that often.
going there to q at 9-10 is damn sucky
by 10 the q is already damn long.
suck big time! but still i love their music and crowd!
ok! this week shall be a butter week!
-
was having some chit chat session with my brother last night.
i told him i wanted to learn how to spin (dj-ing) was asking him if he have any "lobangs" for that.
he den said, i sometimes wonder whether your my little sister or my little "brother"
why cant you learn something normal?
he started naming all the activities, here goes:
why you want to learn how to:
Skateboarding, drive a yacht, breakdance and bla bla bla.
questions asked and i dont know what to reply
haha! i was like ya hor why ah?
i also dont know!
okay maybe im born half manly! HAA!
2 years back i told him. i wanna learn thai boxing!
he say okay go learn later become very muscular den no bf.
HAHA! i was like woah okok bad ideal
-
ok i dont breakdance now.
got some injuries from learning how to break without doing warmup.
was like 14? or maybe 15.
i fell in love with breaking!
but lazybum me hate doing warmup
how smart? DUMB LA!
now i cannot break anymore cause too fat! HAHA!
-
and talking about skate boarding!
wooo! damn fun!
and tks to beng for lending me his precious!
haa!
-
still...
i wanna learn how to dj!
there's alot alot of things i wanna learn.
VOCAL LESSONS!
and more more dance lesson!
gimme gimme more, gimme gimme more~~~
oops!

oh will post photos on my next post!
=D

cheeros!

Feel like getting my tongue and my eyebrow pierce.

hehe

gaaaah.

Party Animal

2008-02-29T16:38:00.001+08:00

HEYA!

I'M OUT PARTYING!

hope i don't get drunk.

every party night is a drunk night for me

ROAR!!!

2008-02-20T15:59:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhh!
i hate going to work!
but i have to!
thou their pay is freaking good, endless free fine dining and bla bla bla
i'm really sick of this kind of routine.
maybe im just too use of like being busy.
this job is way to boring! everyday slack slack slack
but at times i still need to do "sai gang"
and thats really sucky
there's like no aim in life now
i hate that!
like living in this world for the sake of just living
i dont want to be a useless person
ahhhh.. help help help
seriously getting real sick of this kind of lifestyle
partying every single weekends. i misss! but i need to cut down cause i realise half of my pay is on that.
i need a aim!

hmm...

i need to slim down badly!

june knows the reason!

wahahaha.

my happy pill =)

Don't Fear.

2008-02-19T14:16:00.007+08:00

.Don't Fear.

I'm super sleeeeepy now. =(

i spend the whole morning surfing style.com

and omg!! viviene westwood red label is out!

and anna sui! gosh gosh gosh

i saved quite a number of pictures and posted it below

my brother is going to get a piano soon

and his going to teach me!

ahhh, im getting sick of my current lifstyle.

very very sick

i need new clothes!

new bangles!

new shoes

and more money!

lol.

being alone isnt as bad as i thought

i kinda like the sucky feeling

ok call me a weirdo.

watever =)

Viviene Westwood Red Label

Look at their makeup.

i'm loving their looks!

Here's the designer Dame Viv!

Anna Sui

Supa Kawaii Designs!

I love their shoes!

The Designer herself "anna sui"

i shall have all of them in my dream tonight!

Let's all save money!

2008-02-12T11:00:00.001+08:00

Let's all save up!

Random google-d on how to save money.

i seriously need to save up

cos im getting old man!

i'm soooo going to be in my 20s after my birthday.

sometimes i just realise i didn't really spend much on shopping but..

i spend on:

-Transport

-Expensive Meals

-My Gel Nails

-Clubbing and Drinking Session.

-Coffee Addict

and tadah~ my bank account goes empty 2-3 weeks after payday.

-Transport

I hate/love that nowadays cabs accepts nets.

love- i usually dont carry cash with me

hate- i dont know how much money i've spend on cabs

and i somehow dont like taking public transport especially in the morning.

[to save]- arghh..take mrt or even bus more often. =X

-Expensive Meals.

I cant say no to good food!

and i love mac.

i dont mind spending more money on good food

that's part of why i'm always broke!

geez speaking of food, i'm freaking hungry now.

[to save]-less restaurant dining, more kopitiam dining.

-My Gel Nails

people who knows me proberly think that i'm nuts

spending hundreds and hundreds dollars on my nail

ok i admit it but looking at welll groom nails just brighten up my day!

well..maybe i should stop. I'm no Cai Yi Lin! HAHA!

ok maybe just some fancy nails design?

ah! i'm so hopeless

[to save]-gel nails no more =(

-Clubbing and Drinking Sessions

Party animal just cant stop partying!

pass few months didn't club much. (detox) haha!

BUT! seriously i just love parties!

and i love drinking! HOLLA! long island tea please!

Phuture selling it at 70 bucks per jug now tell me how not to be broke!

[to save]-cut down on parties? erm maybe twice per month? okay 3?

-Coffee Addict

well, im not really a coffee addict.

but whenever i'm at work i just can't help it but walk to starbucks to get my favourite vanilla latte. 8-10 cups per month aint so bad huh?

[to save]-avoid walking to starbucks!

2 oh oh 8.

2008-01-23T14:42:00.000+08:00

2 ohhh ohhhh 8!
i haven been blogging for more den a month!

anyway life's good!
i can say 2007 is really a bad bad year for me.
emo emo emo..ROAR! lol
new company ROCKS la. oops hahaa
ok i have difficulty typing due to my long gel nails.
i shall not type that much my fingers are aching. LOL

a few updates:
-gain tons of weight!
-i have long NAILS! finally
-taking up yacht lessons at one degree fifteen
-din club that much as before
-quit smoking. (maybe a few puff at times =x )
-gonna have fake long hair!
-din get drunk for more den a month!
LOL!

the reason i took yacht lesson! its damn fun to be on the yacht i din realise how "mountain turtle" i am until i've been on a yacht.

new company rocks! (repeated twice) lol.

9 anniversery we went to one degree fifteen @ sentosa cove!

I CAN SAY THE PLACE IS FOR THE RICH AND FAMOUS.

okay maybe just rich.

my boss have a house there and its bloooody nice

attic swimming pool! omg.

my boss rent the "long ranger" yacht from onedegree15.

we had so much fun!

look at the pictures!

the net thing is damnnn fun. LOL

no one told us to bring extra clothes nor swimming costumes! so imagine us wearing wet clothes for the whole damnn day.

i love love love going on yacht!

i wanna try wake boarding!

ZHANG XUE YOU!

company treats us to mister jacky cheung's concert!

200 bucks per ticket is crazy man!

i was never a huge fan of him but since its FOC i shall go!

i was shock by his live performance seriously blew me away!

we are damn near to him i dont even have to look at the big screen in order to see his face

look! the pictures are soooo damn clear!

of cox they are not taken by me. I was shouting and screaming like mad!

haha.

i dont know how to control my emotion.
that's bad.

easily affected by words

but i choose to keep it to myself whenever im affected.

i'm feeling very bossy this few days.

roar. i suck at times.

CNY is around the corner!

money money money! LOL

W.love

fel (v)

Two Zero Zero Eight.

2007-12-31T01:54:00.000+08:00

i'm not looking forward for year 2008.

and year 2007 ended way too fast.

lotsa of shit stuff happened.

i dont know why im feeling this right now.

i dont wish to attend any new year's eve celebration

im not excited of the arrival of year 2008.

i guess i shall buy a tub of ice-cream sit infront of the tv.

when the clock hits 12 i'm just going to tell myself,

yeah, 2008 hello.

omg, thats dumb but who cares.

don't ask me if i hv any celebration plan.

or maybe i shall get myself drunk on the first day of 2008?

argh, whatever.

Spider Webs!

2007-12-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

.torn.

gosh, my blog is filled with spider web!
my wrong for not updating! LOL
i've been reallly reallly lazy to blog.
nothing much to write also.
suddenly got the mood to blog!
and this time round PHOTOS!
and some updates about whats going on with me now.
-went out with my dearest cousin! woohoo
-did a really expensive gel nails. (heart-pain)
-bought stuff from mango sales!
-went to club like once this month! broke record.
well, not really into club nowadays.
no good companion, everyones like busy, dont feel like wasting money on dem. bla bla bla
good thing huh?
signed up for oschool dance lessons!
woohoo
cant wait.
and tomorrow is xmas eve.
i dont know why every single year's xmas i will feel damnnn down.
whats my problem man. i also got no ideal.
nvm heckcare me. dumbo.
and ya PEEKS! =)

SENTOSA COVE!

my new boss rocks!

food on the house

after party, DRINKS on the house la!

me and ah bao at mos!

retarded me. (leisure park)

Merry merry x'mas! =B

june ong and me with 2 big packs of popcorn. popcorn sponsored by mini~

huiwen and me @ phuture last month~

my favourite drink.

(I WANT THIS DOG)

Broken Bones and Hearts.

2007-12-12T13:32:00.000+08:00

.Broken Bones and Hearts.

Right now im in my office,

my body is aching, tummy aching and head aching

just why girls always have to suffer?

we suffer from menses "painful attack",

Heart breaks, giving birth and bla bla bla.

omg, even my fingers are aching.

menese i hate you.

you make me feel sleepy, lazy and pain

ROARROAR.

i got no mood to do anything.

it suck.

i dont feel like collecting those letters from my company letter box

im so piss with dont know what.

and bloody hell my always got delay, due to those manager always have so much to do that they got no time to approve our pay

you might not need the money but a small fry like me i need money!

damn damn damn.

being in debt suck, i owe my dad, my mom and my two brothers money.

and those china man in my company never fail to piss me off every single day

and the time now is 1.43pm.

Fel-oves Secondhand Serenade.

2007-12-04T10:16:00.000+08:00

SECONDHAND SERENADE.

.John Vesely.

Secondhand Serenade is an acoustic rock group from Menlo Park, California. The band is made up of John Vesely, born on the 10th of November, 1982, who sings and plays guitar and piano. His music is characterized by multitrack recording so he can create the sound of a band by himself. He uses multitrack recording to create vocal harmonies, and a lead acoustic guitar over strummed chords.

I'm currently hook to his songs.

every song's lyrics touched my heart.

as thou his singing all my emotions a few months back.

wound healed, scars lefted.

even thou sometimes i might look at the scar and think of how foolish i am.

but everything is over and once again life have to go on.

i guess his also a very emo person, listen to his songs and you'll understand.

Extracted some of his lyrics out.

-Half Alive-

Well excuse me while I get killed softly,

Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay

At least 'til yesterday,

You know you got me off my highest guard,

Believe me when I say it's hard.

We'll get through this tonight

And I know one day you and I will be free.

-Your Call-

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

-It's Not Over-

I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right.

I cry, I cry.

I'mShaking from the pain that's in my head.

I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away

The life that I led. But I won't let it die.

But I won't let it die

-End-

I'll hold you closer and tell you I love you

But it won't matter in the end

It's obvious you're leaving soon

Just another heart to mend

rainy days, pack with emotional thoughts,

tears roll down my cheek, i controlled

but it didn't work.

it's just those lyrics that affected my mood.

nothing more then that

hey people, im perfectly fine now.

10 Red apples.

2007-11-29T15:52:00.000+08:00

its 4pm right now.
1 1/2 hours more! knockoff!
meeting weijie later. his showing me some stuff.
keep it a secret before he officially "show" everyone.
yesterday its ladies night. woohoo
phuture!
last night suddenly got "clubbing mood" LOL
met kelvin and the rest there.
omg, huiwen got freaking hell drunk.
and yes longislandtea kills. was tipsy and all. ahhh nothing special.
saw ken,johan and the rest there.
i guess no one likes tipsy fel. LOL
but weird man, i only drank one jug of dont know what mix with lime which taste like lime juice and more den half a jug of long island.
i think its because im like damn tired
hehe.
and off to work. late for 30 mins.
god damn shit.
roar.roar.roar.

i love to be random when im bored.
im really really really bored now.

CRAP !
-pokemon and hellokitty can never be friends.
*dont ask me why cox its random la.

-niggas cant roleplay as snow white.
*how sad.

-what if penguins have long legs and a pair of wings?
*that might be real life pokemon.

-indian babies born on 8 november this year will be name. . .
*DEEPA - for baby boy and VALI - for baby girl.

-27 hours a day?
*yes 3 hours more in your dream.

weird combination, i bet after reading u'll wonder how does it taste like..
-strawberry cheesecake with kwaychap.
-kopi c with vodka pear.
-chicken chop with mac flurry icecream
-tomato sauce with strawberry shortcake
-melted chocolate with salmon sashimi
-wasabi and chillisauce with red bean soup.
-ice kachang with tomatosauce,calbee prawn cracker,chocolate rice and prune.
-boiled nuggets.
-jelly with cubes of boiled cuttlefish.
-mashed potato mix with coke as sauce
-cigs ash with beer.
-chicken rice with banana.
-durain with softhshell crab
-ben and jerry's cheery garcia mix with roasted pork

omg, i feel like puking already.
hahahahhaa

a few weeks ago,
zhenglong ask me whether im afraid of dying.
he say i dont have to answer him staright away, give me some time to think about it.
i dont need to think and replied YES.
and when he ask me why?
i've got no answer for it.
many would have said:
-cannot bear to leave their family members.
-afraid of getting really ill sickness before they die
bla bla bla etc.

i'm not saying im not scard of all those above.
but its not the main thing why am afraid of dying.
just plain afraid
he say he have been thinking of why his also afraid of dying.
he have been looking for the answer for years already. omg
now im like thinking why too.
LOL!

well, it kills me to see my love ones leaving me
really kills.
its like someone whom you always talk to is gone forever
sometimes when i curse i wan that person to die bla bla bla
when i think back if that persn really die, i will really regret
just imagine i've got the power, whenever i curse things really happen?
thats super scary man.
even if i hated that person very very much, wants him to die so badly
but what if he someday somehow REALLY die?
i think i confirm cry like mad, even thou i hated that person.
i cannot explain why also.
i admit i love crying.

in a middle of a rainy night, i always feel emo.
but i somehow agree with ryan,
i'm not emo-ing. Should be feeling lonely.
yea right.
alone in my own room. facing my comp.
doing nothing.
hearing nothing but raindrops falling on my window
arghh, no no no i dont wan to admit im feeling lonely.
ROAR

it's 5pm now.
wore glasses to work today but i got bring contact lense hehe.
so its time to go to the washroom get mhy contacts and makeup on
and VIOLA it will be 530pm.
TIME TO KNOCKOFF!
woohoo weeeeekends!
i love weekends!
hanging out with a bunch of crappy peeps.
what can i ask for?
that's LIFE
hehehehehehehehehehehehehe. . . . . . . .

Count From 1 to 10.

2007-11-27T11:29:00.000+08:00

have not been blogging what i've been doing.
well i have the mood now to.

last weekend was well spend.
friday after work went home change and off to ryan's place
ps2 gaming.
so we game thru out the night. fatal frame and etc
i got knock out around mid-night.
slept on the sofa till noon.
and guess what!
lunch was prepared by ryan and zhenglong.
hmm.. a 8/10
- 1 for the "chao ta" luncheon meat.
-1 for the somehow like not cook nuggets
+5 for the heart shape nuggets where they claim that they took time cutting.
+3 for taking the fuss to prepare a meal.
VIOLA. lol
i din know guys can cook accept for my dad and my second brother.
my first brother is a genius he fry egg without heating the wok and adding oil to it.

Saturday,

left ryan's placed at around 8pm

went home bath and etc.

out to meet them again.

went simpang supose to eat there, but its super crowded and those stupid indian man with their weird accent piss the shit out of me.

switch to beer garden later.

"beer garden" sounds sibei grand. eh eh eh its a kopitiam la! hahaha

after a real late dinner, we went settlers!

played kill doctor lucky. i can say its damn fun!

ryan's a real killer he attempt to kill doctor lucky a lot of times.

while me? i think i better kill myself i only attempt to kill him once

while zhenglong tired like 3-4 times?

settlers is whole lotsa fun!

after settlers ryan and zhenglong went off.

while me lin alex and blur king went to bayshore and slack.

slack for a while went supper

alex is a ultra power driver, we nearly went swimming in his car.

still dont get it? meaning he nearly drove into the pool. VIOLA

lol, supper at ermm.. i also dont know where

suppose to go somewhere near bayshore eat in the end we toured almost half of sg.

LOL, and yeap settled with pig organ soup at . . . TASTY!

after that me and lin went kembangan to look for beng and his gang.

lepak till morning, took first bus home. zzzzzzzzz

Sunday.

i slept till round 7pm.

woke up and feel damn irritated cox i just wasted a day.

slept too much in the end i cant sleep at night. =(

so i went to the link which june gave me. "watching movie online for free"

watched enchanted, hmm.. i dont find it really nice but certain parts quite hilarious.

slept at round 4am.

woke up at 730am damn im like 10 mins late for work.

but phew, if your not late for more den 15 mins they wun detect your pay

Monday.

damn sleepy =(

got no mood to work. (monday blue)

surf web the whole day

talked on the phone as well.

army guys on duty = damn freaking hell free.

lol.

after work went east coast meet jj,pong and vone

went cabanabeach had dinner there.

omg their chicken chop = thumps up! yummmy

and beer kills la

i hate beer

offer me martell,XO, chivas or longisland but no no beer! =(

lol, had some beer and geez. burp like mad.

home and skate

skate skate skate!

12pm lunch time!

i bought bread to work.

lazy go out buy food.

plus can SAVE money.

wholemeal bread plus egg and tomato!

tadah!

TokiDoki DECK!

2007-11-22T16:15:00.000+08:00

today im like super busy!
busy surfing web! wahaha
read kanye west and edison chen's blog.
super intresting i can say
a 8/10 for kanye west's blog
and erm 6/10 for ed's one.
a few pics i stole from their blog.
geez. its thursday! i dig weekends baby!
HAHA.

this is so "fly" taken from kanye's blog.

LV trash bag. man oh man.

taken from kanye's blog

i call them the transformer shoes.

taken from kanye's blog.

when your like thinking enjoi,flip,chocolate or other brands is cool.

i tell you what tokidoki deck is freaking hell "fly"

LOL, i checked its around 190+ just for the deck.,

man oh man its just freaking hell ex!

but i LIKE! =(

Love Is a Losing Game

2007-11-18T13:48:00.000+08:00

Love Is a Losing Game.

i'm 19! duh i'm not happy at all im getting old~!

thanks for all the love, from all my dearest friends!

love love love love love all of you!

a drunk birthday girl = it's damn normal.

didn't turn up for work on the 15 and 16.

the reason why i didn't turn up for work.

15nov- party too hard on the 14.

16nov- skate too hard twisted my ankle and caught a cold.

last night went zouk, got free invites. its free!!! im like super broke. when i hear free i was like okay ON!

cab over to zouk, met ryan, zhenglong and rupert.

and thanks santos for the free invites thing.

and yea long island tea killed fel again.

again and again.

Debra ^ (14nov mid-night)

I got no ideal what kind of pose is that. -_-'''

Hey old man stop playing PSP!

ZhengLong! the only so call clear photo. lol

the night that i skate till 3am and oh ya my buttock still hurts now

Amy Winehouse - Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow.

Tonight you're mine completely

You give your love so sweetly

Tonight the light of love is in your eyes

Will you love me tomorrow?

Is this a lasting treasure

Or just a moment's pleasure?

Can I believe the magic of your sighs?

Will you still love me tomorrow?

Tonight with words unspoken

And you say that I'm the only one, the only one, yeah

But will my heart be broken

When the night meets the morning star?

I'd like to know that your love

Is love I can be sure of

So tell me now, cause I won't ask again

Will you still love me tomorrow?

Yeah

amywinehousewannabe.

11 Fingers and Toes

2007-11-13T09:46:00.000+08:00

SCREAMING OUT LOUD : i have yet collected my pay!
damn!!
It's getting nearer to the date that i really need to use money!
nvm, give me a chill pill.

skate almost everyday after work last week.

friday
went to skate with jj after work.
skate near our place for a while and off to bedok skate park to meet beng and nic
oh well i dont dare to skate, cox most of dem are those so call not bad compared to me.
lol, after 10 lights off, met may at inter and off to simpang to meet ch and the rest.
its prata time! i love! haha.
after simpang its raining cats and dogs but still i wan to skate!
so me and jj went to random void decks and skate.
skate till the rain stop. i skate till i'm damn tired. lol
cox i din sleep since last night. power right? skate till 2-3 am
omg really tired, home-d and sleep like a pig.. lol
saturday
sleep until really like pig.
handphone was shut off, thats why overslept.
supose to acc ryan go buy stuff for steamboat. oops.
woke up prepared wantan and off to his house.
when i was there everythings like ready. omg im so paiseh.
ammie did all those seasoning and etc.
trance blast while enjoying steamboat.
hella "shiok" lol
after steamboat watch tv programmes.
blablabla. bored
to the night its XO time
lol
i LIKE XO!
slack till like morning and back home.
sunday.
i slept like a deadlog.
and missed some shop opening thingy.
simpang and SKATE at night
woohoo.

din skate last night i was way too tired!
slept at around 7plus till this morning.
argh menses attack!
no skating today =(

argh, there's this china man in my office who pissed me off every single day.
he couldn't pronouce my name guess what he call me?
my surname "liu" with a xiao infront.
omg i dont come from huan zhu ge ge century ok!
xiao liu just sounded sooooo -__-''''
he even ask me to do things which is not in my job scope.
eh hello im not that "hao ji fu" okay!
and again he ask me to do things which is totally not related to me.
i'm really pissed of at the way he talk to me, as thou i owe him something.
come and agitate me again and i will fook you upside down.
ROAR. bloody idiot.

2 more days! =)

This is going to be a super random post.

2007-11-08T04:53:00.001+08:00

its 5am now~
~_~

just came back from siglap.
woke up at 5pm, met lin and jj to skate.
phew today only one burise.
went to collect deck from beng yesterday skate for a while.
-_-''' earn 3 bruise yesterday~ gosh
skateboarding is damn hell fun, i've lin hook to it. lol
bored bored bored.

A artistic shot taken by me!

lol, i was bored -_-

YUMMY!

random shots!

basketball and mister spongey!

SCARE you guys to death, a makeup-less me. call me dark eye ring queen.

DR PEH !

me and lin trying our very best to skate.

obviously we need more pratice.

Fuck Emo Rainy Days.

2007-11-06T10:36:00.000+08:00

Back!
=D

this kind of weather is killing me, i got easily affected by the weather.
sunday night it was pouring heavily out there.
i felt so cold and lonely everyone in the house is asleep.
its so quiet. And i thought of the past.
my heart was suddenly frozen and felt so helpless.
so i decided to go online. And talk to someone.
Yea, i felt better after talking. =)
ok stop this emo shit.
"i've got pink nails"! random random random.

Friday after work!
bought muffins for my fellow friends!
met JJ after work went to yp to look for john.
talk crap,shared muffins,smoked and played idiotic games.
i played the "no english" game with jj.
it goes this way. Speak no english, Speak and get whack.
you can imagine how many times i kenna whack.
but mister "nice" guy JJ say he shall accumulate a lot of times already den hit me.
thanks ah jj!
got a call from kat! its k session!
she and her "future" husband came and fetch me. so nice! =)
well, drank martell.
almost finish half the bottle cox only and her future husband drinking
ok it killed me i freaking hell puked! and its in kbox for the fucking first time so embarrasing.
consider drunked me called lin and john. LOL eh power still sober enuff to call dem.
sat outside plazasing somewhere near the macdonald man. sat there and wait for lin.
god damn "paiseh". ok nvm dont talk about it.

saturday!
woke up like around 2.
was so damn hell bored.
watched cantonese drama and stoned.
stoned till erm. cant remember what time went town meet lin and xianwen
met ch at tanah den santos in town.
chilled at starbucks and off to ryan's place
played circle of death.
Three words "Drink,Drank,Drunk"
i was tipsy but not to the extend to like drunk.
both "R"s are like down. lol
oh i took a video! but a bit lazy to upload.
and i sounded weird in it. next video i shall keep quiet.
lol

sunday!
stayed home.
watched miami ink.
and omg im getting my "ink" next week!
weeee!
im sooo damn hell excited.

yesterday had dinner and played basketball with jj.
FUN!
basketball-ing tonight again!
=D

the word is sympathy not love.

argh, im feeling down again.

for what fuck

i cant explain.

when fel's crapping hard you better listen and entertain her.

she's trying to mnake herself happy.

Soulmate.

2007-10-31T10:30:00.000+08:00

Wednesday!
2 more days to weekend.
and im not happy at all.
the handphone that i wan to sell is spoilt! fook
i can sell it for 200 bucks man.
i dont know what went wrong. shit there goes 200 bucks.
i guess im gg to stay home and nua for this weekend.
till i get my ONE week pay next month.
pathetic man. got no money to use on my birthday month.
but still! im gg to have my first tattoo! dont care! lol
shall eat bread and drink plain water for the month.

been really moody this few days, quarrel with mom almost everyday.
fucking shit. and i got easily irritated nowadays.
not pms. my menses just say bye to me recently.
was super moody the moment i went home yesterday.
had dinner, watched tv and back into my room.
blast reggae and dance. dancing makes me feel better.
sweat like hell took a bath and off to bed.
hm.. i feel like playing netball this weekend.
alright gonna call marh and make appointment.
it have been donkey years since i play netball.
i use to play them back in primary and secondary school, all time favourite while having PE.
i usually play center or goal attack, i really miss those days.
everyday after school, NETBALL! was really tanned back then.
people can even mistaken me as a malay.

recently im hook to the song name soulmate by natasha bedingfield.

'Who doesn't long for someone to hold'
'Who knows how to love you without being told'
'Somebody tell me why I'm on my own'
'Is there's a soulmate for everyone'

oh well fel stop emo-ing.
well, its lunch time! time to eat my bread and drink my milo.
damn sad. LOL

2008!

2007-10-30T10:49:00.000+08:00

hee! im like so free!
i think i can update my blog often!
yesterday after work, met JJ we nua-ed @ raffles for a while.
later met ch,lin and ah beng at siglap makan melayu food.
talk crap and all. den bus-ed home.

well, other then picking up calls and distributing letters just now i got nothing much to do.
so, i went to surf the net. like those nonsense one i also surf. haha
but im like super duper excited! singapore very first international standard skatepark @ eastcoast park!
it's expected to be done on early 2008! aiya but confirm they will drag one.
walao i better go pratice hard first. the plan is like "NICE" man!
oh man, i cant wait!! heeeee.
http://www.mcys.gov.sg/MCDSFiles/Press/Articles/22-2007.pdf
i cant wait to see more great stunts! =)
somemore ecp is near to my house!
ok stop stop! lets fall hard on our buttocks! LOL

again! miss fel is going to bal bla bla. .. im very random.
i mean im gg to say "I MISS HONGKONG BADLY"
i miss the food! those scenery from the peak.
the people there! cantonese!
ok nvm i shall listen to canto song.
best thing! whoever knows how to speak cantonese please speak to me in cantonese!
wahahaha. walao i sibei random.
oh i forgot about all the lengzai from hongkong. *drooling* wahahaha
behave fel behave.
and i wonder what the girls there eat?
everyone one looks like bamboo stick. "hoi fit lor" HAHA
i feel like a fat bitch there. erm... maybe a fat bitch here too! haha
shit im craving for dimsum. eyer!
i better start saving for the trip! MINI LIN you hear me save up for HONGKONG trip yo!
i cant wait to club there.
oh i love their cafes there, its like damn nice to "lepak"
and cigs there is like damn hell cheap.
why am i not BORN there! ta ma de. HAHHA
i kept telling my mother i miss hongkong until she cannot tahan.
she say go get yourself a hongkong husband la! okok i wan li ka seng!
LOL! joking la.
it's 12pm now! LUNCH TIME BABY!
wah why am i so hyper today. nuts.
lalalalalala.

Enjoy Life. =)

2007-10-29T10:24:00.000+08:00

I'm back!
i've been super lazy. not in the mood to blog.
well, life is enjoyable. nothing much happening.
chilled with friends almost everyday after work.
new job is really "shiok"
by the way im working now. cox i got nothing much to do so i think its time to blog.
basically what i need to do during work is to take care of all company chops.
well, theres like more den 50 different chops. argh.
pick up calls, attend to wal k-in, help to make reservation for hotel, air ticket, restaurant and etc.
to say its those bimbotic jobs where by u need to look presentable and all la.
but shiokness! 9-5.30pm. lunch hour one and a half hours. this kind of job where to find?
lol compared to my old job this is like heaven man. no one will care what you are doing one man. although its a chinese company full of china people. aiya dont care la. good pay good environment good working hours. ok nvm i bo chup dem. lol the irritating part of dem is that they always laugh at the way i speak chinese. -_______-'''

-
-friday prata-ed with may. den i head home. cox i dont know where to go. lin and all are at siglap but im way to lazy to get my ass there. amazing huh? a friday night yet miss fel is at home. because she ultimately broke!!
-saturday plush~ with bao,lin,ch and others. its free entry! thats why i go. but the crowd there very wrong. lol might be im too use of gg to phuture. just felt weird when i step in there.
man! i miss phuture! =x back to plush. we drank outside 7/11 LOL. i stole some martell from mommy. oops. later on bao's friend bought somemore liqour. bombay i think well, after that u know usually what happen to miss fel after she had too much liqour. went into plush drank more liqour. hoho.shiokness. by the time its 3+ im like knock out already. geez. puke the moment when i reach home. and thanks to santos for breaking the glass bottle i had like "a lot" of small cuts, he had "big cuts" just that his too high to realise he cut himself. wtf, hahaha.
-sunday, i stayed home the whole day. amazing! really amazing. i spend my day at home watching skate videos. from pro skaters to those who fall flat on the ground. some vids really scare the shit out of me. Head smashed, buttocks bleeding and etc. freaking scary, i hope when i skate i dont get all those shit. cox its freaking hell painful la! blueblacks i can tahan wah head bleeding and all omg. thats what i call REAL EXTREME games. geez.
got one vid damn funny its a skater and bmx rider. the skater skate pass the rider and push him down the slope. wahahaha.that rider can still laugh. something wrong with his brain. i think fall down too often already. LOL!

planning to go roller blade with marh! anyone wants to tag along? i think im going to fall like mad. but nvm. i enjoy falling down. hahaha, thats sick.
well, i realise i had type a lot. its because currently i got nothing to do. and i dont know what to do.
damn my phone is playing tricks on me. ta ma de. lol

a joke to share.
yesterday while i was talking 1o beng about skateboarding and all.
den i said something like crap !
he asked me go where buy?
at the moment i was like HUH? what talking you.
he den said crab where to buy. < something like dat i cant remember.
den i told him i think bedok ntuc got sell, from sri lanka one.
he den said his lazy and all. bla bla bla
well HERES the joke.
he said HUH, sri lanka crabs ah. eeeeeeee on top of the shell got red dots one.
walao i laugh out damn loud.
imagine his guai face. omg. wahahhaaa
eh lazy ah buy crab stick la easy to cook and cheap.
LOL. hmm.. what esle.
oh, talk to laopeh yesterday too.
something that i laugh out loud too.
i was tell him in canto im bored (ngo hoe moon ah)
he replied me (ngo hoe sun ar) i was like what the fuck
and retardedly reply ngo hoe star.
i was damn hell bored yesterday la.
ah chiou ah, now u know the feeling of super drunk and puking like a merlion ah.
next time control a bit, if not your mister wilson will be worried. later he say we never take care of you. =)
what else? damn it i just receive a bag of letters need to distribute dem out later. its a lot man.
shit.
anyway birthday around the corner. shit im like 19. i like dont wan to grow old eh.
anyway a tattoo for me as a gift from myself. =)
i feel like playing netball. Hmm, basketball also can la.
i need some exsercise, im gaining a lot of weight.
yoga on dec! true yoga is just opposite my office. hehehe.
till den.
=)

Fel-oves to be random!

2007-10-21T02:32:00.000+08:00

it's saturday! geez im like stuck at home cox i dont feel like going out. and i shall erase whatever happen yesterday from my memory. dont ask cox i wun say much. fel oh fel! argh!

and viola! hahaha. the above video is super random la! cox i got sooooooooo bored just now.

and i made my spongebob sing! it's fang da tong's ai ai ai.

im bored and broke! starting my new job next week!

new life!

hehhehee.

i guess more random videos in future! bahh!

Hi Retards!

2007-10-19T08:31:00.003+08:00

Hullo Retards! .

___________________________________________

.Phuture Night.

CHIOUHUEY!!

YVONNE!!

AH LIANG!

JJ!!

Last Saturday, Phuture Babey~ it's bao's birthday celebration. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BITCH! your finally 18! woohoo!

oh man im turning 19 real soon. fook! OLD!

what should i do on my birthday?

BORING~!

___________________________________________

.Monday.

.Throw Me For Just $15?

WHY SO CHEAP!

WAHAHAHA.

SKIN! my handphone camera sucks.

.Sarong Fly. what a weird name.

MINI LIN!

.Mini with empty vodka bottles.

oh my god the third week! im slacking. never go work.

oh but anyway they sack me and wants me to compensate den a month salary.

HELL DO I CARE. bla bla bla

so next week im starting my new job.

hm.. what did i do on monday?

let me recall.

went ryan's place to play mahjong.

SHEILA U SIBEI NOOB LEH! wahahhaa

damn long never play mahjong.

played a few rounds and i got bored.

in the end we ended up watching young and dangerous. -_-'''

later at night flik came to pick up us.

we went IKEA~ the meatballs there is THUMPS UP!!

and their chicken wings! woah. all fatty food!

later on went SKIN to chill and all.

mini lin tagged along~

godness, SKIN is like damn nice! super nice to chill.

and sarong fly is nice too!

we took a number of videos BUT! im not posting them! cox my voice suck like dont know what in the videos!

LOL, but there's a few "piks"

later on miss sheila still wants to drink!

waliew, we ended up at boatquey <>

martell time! xiaozhen and a few other guys tag along!

sang two songs, like weeeee... finally i got to sing again, even thou im having sore thoart and all heckcare! hahaha..went home after that.

i want to go SKIN~!!

___________________________________________

.Friday Morning. (today)

Good Morning Friday!

eyer, specs and make-up less. better cover up. LOL

My breakfast!

-_-''''

Fatty Food! but i LOVE THEM!!

you want some milk milk?

POCARI SWEAT is the sex!

ah! help i cant sleep! since yesterday until now! its 9am now!

help help help.

since i cant sleep, i went down to get myself breakfast.

i dont know why nowadays i eat so much! im quite shock too

i think you might be shock too, look at the photo on top.

but i din finsh it! i just got the urge to buy a lot of food.

oh god, the food nearly kill me! my stomach is going to brust!

but the vegetarian beehoon rocks! my favourite!

the chee cheong fun = THUMPS UP!

and last but not least my favourite siew mai!

hehehe....

went cheers, thought of like just getting pocari sweat.

BUT . . ..

i bought BEN n JERRY ice-cream, HL MILK , Red Bull, Starbucks coffee and pocari sweat.

wahpiang! its damn heavy!

i dont know why i love buying drinks.

like my last trip to korea, i bought like A LOT of drinks back.

will post the photos in my next post!

man.....im feeling sleepy already!

it's friday! and it seems like everyone is heading to phuture.

argh, im broke! never work for so long where got money go!

argh. any kind hearted members SIGN ME IN LA!

lol!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. . . . .

Hey You, Retards.

2007-10-12T17:05:00.000+08:00

Hey you, Retards.

Oh god! i cant believe. i just MIA from work for 2 weeks! nvm thats a sucky company after all.

life is good.

cox i dont need to work! i slack and still slack slack slack!

went clubbing as usual. argh. i seriously need to stop!

okay wait wait. till i get my deck.

everyone around is saying that im insane,

whats wrong with skateboarding! ok maybe i agree with june

thats what a 15 years old fel will do, but hey your 19 by the way.

argh! if i never give up when im 15, damn! i think i'll be pro and get membership from any major hospitals.

hahaha!

rollerblading can be fun too! marh suggested it. ok might try.

no matter what im still getting a deck, i miss falling down like a clown. getting bruise all over.

man~ thats psychotic!

other then this few stuff i got no ideal what i can do on weekends night.

seriously no ideal!

im looking at the heartagram dip pink deck online~ oh my god! super hell nice! its not cheap too.

hm, leaving this shit company real soon.

and will be working at raffles. new job, new environment and new salary. haha!

if you sense danger, step back.

or else learn it the hard way.

fuck its so random.

geez.

bao's birthday around the corner.

hehehe.

and FEL LOVES BEING RANDOM!

Hey! whats on your shoes.

0-o

whatever! lol

.Double Trouble.

.Heyo!.

. hullo .

.Xiao Zhen.

Videos! lol its a short video of me performing for my company dinner.

Pearlene took it. thanks!